There’s No Place Like Now

Horoscope for Wednesday, Oct 25, 2017

Scheduling your activities carefully so you can meet all your commitments is a smart strategy. But you could add so much structure to your day that you’re constantly thinking about what you need to do next, rather than being present in the moment…

 

Last Thursday, under a new moon in my 2nd house of income and resources, I signed a contract for an ad-agency internship in Manhattan! Today is my first day, and I couldn’t be more excited. But not in the giddy way of kid on their first day of grade school. I’m all grown up now!

Okay, hardly. But I’ll admit, I feel uncharacteristically mellow for such a momentous occasion. My heartbeat is steady. My breath is measured. I started this morning like any other. It just feels like I’m right where I’m supposed to be. The unfamiliar sense of certainty is exhilarating in and of itself.

An Ode to Google Calendar:

Between this part-time job and another in tutoring, as well as a freelance gig, personal blog, and upkeep of sanity, I have developed a slight obsession with calendaring. Signing my contract gave me a thrill, but there’s nothing quite like adding a recurring event to my schedule.

This hobby of mine comes with its side effects. As I sharpen my skills in time management, distrust in myself brews and bubbles over. If I do anything that falls beyond the range of the day’s tasks, it constitutes as wasted time. I even edit my calendar retroactively, justifying every hour spent surfing the web and submitting to the tide. “That was wellness research,” I’ll say after my 7th listicle of the hour: ‘[X] Ways to Cook [insert vegetable here].’

Photo by Sarah Pflug

As a result, I treat every minute of the day with scrutiny: was I doing something useful just now? Am I getting somewhere?

The past few months have taught me that the answer is always yes.

Everything you do influences the person you’ll be tomorrow. No matter the task, the path your fingers take on the keyboard will leave its print your fingertips. You’re always changing. Even when you can’t see it. Especially when you stop looking for it, and instead relish in where you are now. ‘On the way’ is a pretty great place to be, too.

The point…

Before your meal plan can truly glow up, you have to look in the mirror and say, “I don’t know shit about vegetables.” It’s one of the many brutal and crucial steps that will someday lead to dreams of legume listicles. Your training-wheel recipes will go extinct, while your favorite ones become instinct. No matter where you are in that journey, it’s worthy of celebration.

You could be in aisle 4 on the sub-level of Trader Joe’s, giving directions to a free-range freshman who doesn’t even have their own shopping bags (gasp!). Or you might be hiding in your room until the vegetables you brought home go stale, or whatever, so you don’t even have to try cooking them. Either way, you’re in a different spot than you were months or weeks or days ago.

So it’s okay to be where you are now. Congratulate yourself for getting here. The day will come when you leave this aisle, or bed, or desk, and never find your way back to it again. Now isn’t forever. So while you’re here, enjoy the view.

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